One Of My Melancholy

I went to a Conference at the University last Thursday in my school. Actually, I liked it what spoke there, you know? I think that after all Audiovisual Language it is what I expected, but it also made me doubt on wheter if really wanted to study either, Graphic Design; Not already know:(...Recently I felt as if everything bother me, I hate when alone for a while, I was sick; Because I do not have much to do or where to go. Perhaps I have been plunged into a deep hole of agony where the only thing left is you feel the emptiness, melancholy feel to be there within, as if everything bother you, you become ill. You have no where to go, what to do, rather than staying still hoping that it's time to open your wings and get out of there fast.Planning to edit some things, but I got so discouraged that not even meaning to be found here. I did not know what to do, I just wanted to go.

...agh... crap... Once I started to think: Is it possible that I am already tired of the world from nothing and even though he no longer wants to continue gathering sense here? . Detained without anything to do, walk senseless, waiting for the new day just to feel the same.
That is not so melancholy or am obsessed with certain things in my past, but is it necessary to reach the point of just wanting to go away from everybody and everything trying to find an answer to many questions sailing in my head at this lake doubts and decisions? You can say that this is a crazy, but for me it is just one more of these splendid ideas of Lake of decisions ... this place so strange.
Close your eyes, and a gray world stirs your mind, making you feel is yours, there is no time, nor place, nor space ... only you and gray background. You see certain things done in reality it is not easy to manage...There comes a time when so much shit I want to forget and try to go back on my five senses, making sober view, I am not drunk ... but everything is moving to my disadvantage, I am well, I have nothing, I just want to return to the reality once more.